Saturday, July 29, 2017

So Many Plates

This morning I told Chris how overwhelmed with details I felt. His response was a worry free, "But you're really good at it. You'll get it done." So far he's right. The fear is always there though that I won't be able to get it done.

This month has been... I can't even think of an appropriate word. "Overwhelming" sounds too dismal. "Jam-packed" sounds too exciting. Maybe I should just show you a compilation of my lists...

Find Ty a desk
Go to Gadsden to pick up desk
Paint desk
Find Ty a dresser
Go to Anniston to pick up dresser
Paint dresser
Stock Ty's kitchen
Get tires for the van
Get tires for Ty's car
Pay for Ty's parking decal
Check Maggie's financial aid
Check Ty's financial aid
Take Maggie shopping for her new classroom
Go to Brody's pre-op appts
Surgery for Brody
Doctor with Maggie
Post-op with Brody
Deal with insurance
Find Brody's English curriculum
Buy Brody's science and english
Buy Gracie's textbooks
Apply for Jeff State for Gracie
Request transcript
Organize MDO work emails
Email all new students
Print out student handbooks
Make copies and assemble student packets
Help teachers with room set-up
Sell laminator
Contact all Children's Ministry Teachers
Schedule Teacher Training
Plan training content 
Teacher Training
Meet new renters
Tweak and print out new lease
Schedule meeting to sign lease
FIND THE KEYS (ugh)
Get the trailer ready for new tenants
Call the dermatologist 
Plan food for potluck at church
Research and decide MDO book study
Margaret's surgery
Pick up pain meds from WalGreen's
Register for school!!! (for the love)
Find boxes for Ty (but not until next week. no space)


All this plus regular details like buy groceries, pay bills, clean house, answer emails, etc. The above list is copied from my actual lists. I have them divided into urgent/important/maybe-I-can-get-to-it. See what I mean? 

I'm honestly not complaining. It's just life. At times like this it is so easy for me to slip into super-woman mode and MAKE IT HAPPEN. "I will do the work. I will get it done. I will lose sleep and stress out about it." 

But...

I'm learning there is a better way. The way of rest . The way of faith. And it starts with the belief that my identity is not connected to my ability. It continues with the understanding that God truly is sovereign. His plans are good and cannot be thwarted. His yoke is easy and His burden is light. His steadfast love endures forever. He will accomplish all His holy will. 

It's okay for me to keep taking one step in front of the other. It is also okay for me to take ten minutes of down time to meditate on His word. It's okay to rush around. But it's also okay to snuggle with Chris on the couch and forget it all for a bit. Jesus is with me in the crazy. He reminds me of truth, and sometimes he even reminds me of appointments. 

#itsallgood



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